Four months on

Four months on

Content warning: suicide    Losing a mate to suicide, four months on    Four months ago, my mate John took his own life. The time of intense sweeping emotions has passed… No longer the sleepless nights filled with grief. The flashes of anger have abated, the days of...
Chronic Pain

Chronic Pain

Being in pain all the time is exhausting. Sometimes I think “I should be used it by now, it’s been years” and most days I am. I can go about my life with not much interference from the ever-present pain and then other days I’m so tired and just want it to stop.    ...
Coming out of lockdown

Coming out of lockdown

Coming Out of Lockdown     I’m sitting in a café next to the Apple store, feeling shattered and staring into space. I’ve just spent an hour being dazzled by the world of 21st Century consumerism, and then an idea popped into my head that I never thought would...
Multiple Diagnoses

Multiple Diagnoses

Content warning: mental health    Living with multiple mental health conditions, it can be challenging to identify what’s contributing to how I’m feeling and behaving.     Sometimes, the distinction is unimportant, such as when I realise I can’t recall what I’ve been...
Trauma versary

Trauma versary

My ex-partner used to say to me “Why do you keep track of the dates when your traumas happened? Wouldn’t be better for you to just forget?” and something about that question always bothered me.     On principal, of course she was right. It would be easier and probably...

Talking to men about mental health

Talking to men about mental health   Has this ever happened to you? You look at a mate and you see he doesn’t look right. You ask, ‘are you OK?’ and he says, ‘all good here’. However, you can clearly tell that he’s not right, and that’s not the whole story.      You...